It was told me some time ago, in the training, that a disposition is a tricky matter. It is something that eventually frustrates my growth in life, despite it being my friend, and something useful to me growing up.
This was something which I always kept in the back of my head, because while I did not understand it, there was something about it which made me pay attention to it.
Yesterday, while I was eating dinner, I considered why some things bothered me. Why was I so extreme in certain matters? There really was no outward, apparent reason. After some consideration, I came up with one word, "Disposition". Immediately, what was told me came back, and I realized that the Lord has been, and is continuing to work on my disposition. But, my response has been to stand with my disposition.
Now, things are starting to clear up, a couple months later than what I would have preferred, but anyways.
Written on June 17, 2010